Hookup, Find Sex or Meet Someone Hot Now
Ramblings of the depraved.....
Welcome to my blog!
Keywords | Title View | Refer to a Friend |
Welcome to the border, may I take your order?
Posted:Jul 9, 2020 6:36 pm
Last Updated:Jul 10, 2020 1:59 pm

So.... Yah.

I'm in the process of putting together a luncheon for work tomorrow and decided to go with a local Mexican restaurant.

Red flags everywhere....

The first time I called to see if they could even provide us with what we needed, the person who answered the phone said to me... "You call tomorrow. Boss no here, you call tomorrow. One o'clock. You call tomorrow."

Um.... Ok.

I consult with Boss #2 who was listening from her office, and we decide we will give it another shot.

I called back the following day.

This time a female with broken English told me the boss was not there and he is only in and out briefly, can he give me a call.

Seeing this become a giant waste of my time, I told the girl that he had until 4 pm or I would have no choice but to choose a different restaurant. I then went on to tell her I was looking at ordering enough food for 125 people and if they didn't have the capability of providing this for me to just tell me now so I can Keep looking.

Suddenly, she was taking my order.

Within 45 minutes the boss who was never there was calling me back, confirming my order, and assuring me they had the capabilities of providing us what I needed. He quoted me a price and then politely asked if I could provide 50% down.

Not a big deal... It was a lot of food I was ordering and the restaurant is kind of small..... So Boss #2 drops off the 50% today after work.

Nobody knows anything.


She texts me a picture of the receipt and I just want to die.

It's the workers name, the word paid (in Spanish) and the dollar amount.

Am I even going to be able to invoice this???

Needless to say, I'm not feeling very secure about this whole thing. We'll see what happens tomorrow when I show up to pick up the food. I have a bad feeling I'm going to be demanding my $500 back and walking away with no food.

Wish me luck!
My spidey senses are tingling....
Posted:Jul 8, 2020 5:18 pm
Last Updated:Jul 9, 2020 6:02 pm

And they're telling me there is heartbreak afoot!!

The Studmuffin was in the middle of the parking lot when I got home from work today, complete with crappy black truck and a midlife crisis blond. Thankfully he was behind the wheel, it looked as though he was headed out when he was stopped....

Wait a second here... What exactly am I witnessing? Is it?? It is!!

Yep, you guessed it!

Studmuffin was breaking hearts and taking names.

Midlife Crisis Blond was standing next to the drivers side window of the truck, crying.

When I pulled into the drive I had interrupted a giant, public, redneck break up. He was now forced to move out of the way as he was blocking the drive. He slowly rolled forward to allow me through in my car as the Midlife Crisis Blond turned on her heel, wiped a few tears, and headed into her building.

I didn't even look in his direction as we drove past each other.


The guy certainly knows how to create a scene. The only thing missing was the crowd of big haired, chain smoking friends morally supporting Mid Life Crisis Blond.

Happy Wednesday.
The Apartment Studmuffin
Posted:Jul 7, 2020 2:37 pm
Last Updated:Jul 10, 2020 3:10 pm

Apparently the guy across the hall has become the resident Apartment Studmuffin.

I look at him.... And I see a loser without a job who hangs out in the parking lot all day.

I guess the girlfriend/wife is gone now??

Cause, I see all the fake blond, mid life crisis residents have begun to orbit him and his crappy black truck.

Today he is actually WASHING his truck in the up front parking spots. I parked there anyway, fucking douche.

The moment I started pulling into my space the white trash blonde he was talking to stumbled into the parking spot and just looked at me and smiled like she was cute or something.

Um, yah, no.....

Chick, you're probably older than I am, no amount of peroxide is going to hide that fact.

She flitted off to an apartment in one of the other buildings and I just shook my head. This is a residential apartment complex, it's not a set from a b-level porno....

The cable man doesn't come with tear off pants and the pizza guy really only has pizza in that box.

Perhaps I just have higher standards....

But, I don't want to come home to a scene from Car Wash at the end of the day or feel embarrassed to have a friend come over and witness the white trash episode of the moment.
Sometimes I wonder....
Posted:Jul 6, 2020 3:20 pm
Last Updated:Jul 8, 2020 4:48 pm

Why can't I just be normal? Or, some relative semblance of normal?

Most of the time I feel like a fucking neurotic crazy person.

I was doing ok this morning. My Middle was getting ready for his day, as you may recall, he headed down to Detroit today to do his Marine testing. He had just gotten out of the shower, and the door was closed, but I yelled through the door to have a good day and wished him luck.

Then I went to leave.

And, I headed back to the closed door and told him to bring cash and that I loved him.

Then I went to leave.

And, I headed back to that goddamn door one more time to tell him I'm proud of him.

This time I forced myself to leave as I was going to be late for work.

So far, so good, no emotional breakdowns. I'd handled the whole thing like a champ!

And then the Beatles song 'Yesterday' started to play.

First the eyes teared up. Them my lips trembled as I tried to hold it back. The next thing I know I'm a blubbering mess in the parking lot at work.

Fucking fantastic.

I managed to pull myself back together and head in. Thankfully the most irritating man on the face of the planet had decided to walk in at the same time so I was able to shift my sorrow to irritation and hatred of the most irritating man on earth.

You know the guy....

The one who says stupid shit that requires no answer or comment back and stares at you like you're supposed to respond.

I made it all the way to my office and worked for a bit before I managed to get emotional not once, but TWICE while talking to Nose Hairs, complete with teary eyes and hitched voice.


I think I even said to him, "oh my God, I'm a fucking crazy person." He just listened, he knows I'm having a hard time with it all, and I told him that today I was worried about my being down in Detroit.... Crime.... etc.

I think, sometimes, the best conversations are the ones where you can just talk while someone listens.

I get it now.... Right now, this very moment, why people love to talk to me. I have a lot of conversations, and a lot of people come to me for help. Not because I'm a genius or have every answer....

They come to me because I listen.

I'm seeing it all, right now, from the other side. I'm usually that person who is listening. Sometimes I have input, sometimes I do not. But, I always listen, and empathize, and share the moment when there are tears as I offer encouragement.

I get it.
Three day weekend, last day....
Posted:Jul 5, 2020 3:35 pm
Last Updated:Jul 6, 2020 2:35 pm

My weekend has flown by....

I took the Spawn to Sturgeon Bay again today, it just might possibly be my most favorite spot on this entire earth.




Wilfred Brimley and Jerry Garcia??

The Spawn and I had been in the water for quite some time when I decided I'd better get more sunscreen on. So far, so good, I've been able to keep myself to a nice, healthy shade of not quite sunburned.

I don't want to wreck it...

So, we headed back to where we had set up our chairs and towels and discovered the little section of beach that had been secluded when we arrive was now peppered with people.


On our right was Wilfred Brimley standing guard, eyeballing the beach goers and smoothing down his giant mustache.

On our left was Jerry Garcia, listening to tunes, wrapped in some sort of blue cape like thing.


We headed to our little spot on the beach just in time... Just in time to see the super tan speedo man fall backwards in his chair but laugh heartily as he managed to save his drink.

It was a feat of miraculous agility, apparently.

Kind of like a cat landing on it's feet.... It was a drunk, super tan speedo man not spilling a drop.

A true miracle.

Happy Sunday.
Happy Fourth of July!!
Posted:Jul 4, 2020 5:25 pm
Last Updated:Jul 6, 2020 2:37 pm

My didn't start so ....

I ended up spilling half a cup of coffee down the side of my fridge and on the kitchen floor when I went to move the cup.


It was like the thing stuck to the counter and refused to slide. Probably didn't help that my mind was in a million places at once.

Like always....

After two loads of laundry and an hour at the , everything seemed better.

For me, the is like mental clarity. I listen to music and get on the elliptical and everything kind of comes into focus.

I can think.

Today I thought about my current romantic situation, or, lack thereof... And realized, it is exactly what I need it to be.

Am I happy with things the way they are? No....

Do I want them to be different? Yes....

I've realized, however, that I now need something way different in my life then what I've always looked to find.

looking for someone with whom I can develop an emotional attachment to as well as have sex.

It's been a really, really long time since I've felt this way.

I've always been a little cavalier about sex.... not going to coat things as I've had many sexual partners over the years, in some cases I don't even remember names.... But sexual activity to me had always just been for gratification and fun.

Not for love... Not since I was married....

Which is why I've always found my way back here. The men on here aren't looking for love, they're looking for a little gratification and someone to stroke their.... ego.

For a time, it was exactly what I needed.

not quite sure what to do with this epiphany. Even as sitting here, enjoying this amazing summer evening, drinking wine on my balcony.... perplexed.

The moment I decide to start looking for love, I know my feelings will be hurt over and over again as familiar with how the real world operates. I will continue to encounter the men who are looking for just a piece of ass, only now it will be disguised behind the facade of "looking for the one". up there in age now so I will be compared to past wives/girlfriends and judged by buddies.

I think for today, I'll just stick to the wine on my balcony and save the heart ache for another day.
Friday... Vacation Day!!
Posted:Jul 3, 2020 4:24 pm
Last Updated:Jul 4, 2020 4:37 pm

Boss #2 was gracious enough to let me take a much needed vacation day today.

It was fricking amazing...

The weather is absolutely gorgeous and Lake Michigan was amazing. The Spawn and I spent two hours just lounging in the water following the sand bars down to the point. It was a beautiful enough that I was able to let go of my anxiety over my Middle going to Detroit on Monday to do his ASVAB testing.

I'm thankful he won't be alone as he will be on a shuttle bus with other Pooley's. (Apparently that's what they're called when they're still in the candidate pool.) I'd be lying if I said it wasn't pulling at my heart strings watching him take these steps into adulthood.

It helps to see him so excited about it.

I'd thought he was staying at his Dad's last night when he came home around 7 o'clock excitedly telling me he had his first workout with the recruiter.

OMG! You scared me! I thought you were staying at dad's.

No, I was working out with the Pooley's. I did 39 pull ups. Surprised myself. Thought I was going to puke twice....

OMG! Why? Are you ok??

When you exercise your core, if you have food in there, it works itself back out.

OMG! I don't like this!

I've got this mom! (Huge smile on his face.) Your boy didn't puke.

So, yah, I'm struggling, but I'm accepting. I also had to accept the fact that he's also found himself a different job. We will be coworkers no more.....

I really liked having him work with me, too.
When in doubt....
Posted:Jul 2, 2020 1:43 am
Last Updated:Jul 2, 2020 11:19 pm

The answer is YES!

Please do!!

Absolutely use that front parking spot, and the one next it, resurface your shitty truck in the parking lot of our apartment building.

You fucking douche bag....

I got home from work yesterday and the neighbor from across the hall was sanding the bottom portion of his truck with a power sander right in front of the building, right in front of the apartment of the guy who works third shift.

I'm certain the guy was in there trying to sleep as all blinds were drawn and it looked pretty dark.

The ignorance of some people astounds me.
Gym Tales
Posted:Jul 1, 2020 6:26 pm
Last Updated:Jul 3, 2020 3:45 pm

When my key card wouldn't open the door at the gym yesterday, I messaged the owner to see what was up.

Apparently, there's a lot up.

At the time, I'm certain she was under the belief that I had done something to the card to deactivate it and prevent myself from being able to enter or that it was merely operator error.

So, she told me she would review the video.


Like.... I'm going to lie about the key card not working? Because.... why would I lie about something stupid like that?

I have to say, I felt a little vindicated today when she messaged me back stating she had been on the phone with corporate all day because they are having issues with the door that she was unaware of. Apparently the door is randomly picking and choosing who it wants to let in.


At this point in time, my card is not working with the door.... Which means, I can only work out when the staff is there. The staff is only there during my own work hours.... So, no workouts for me until the door is fixed.

Just when I had it back! They take it all away....
And... Today's the day.
Posted:Jun 30, 2020 3:11 am
Last Updated:Jul 3, 2020 3:49 pm

I told my Middle I would meet him at the recruiter's office after work today.

My heart is sad and I'm feeling so much dread..... But I support his decisions and I want him to feel confident in them. I raised him to be independent, to be able to make wise choices, and now it is time for me to set my baby bird free.

Dammit this is hard!!

I want to be mad at the Spawn for clipping her toenails on the couch and LEAVlNG the clippings right where they flew....

But, I can't.

I swept the stupid things into my hand and cried a little at the realization that she, too, will be flying the coop in just a few more short years as well.

It just all feels so final, to me. Like, the end of an era...

My ENTIRE adult life has been wrapped up with being a mom of young . I was 19 when my ex-husband and I had my oldest ... I was 28 when we had my middle .... I was 33 when we had the Spawn.

I know I should be rejoicing in the fact that I've raised such wonderful, independent, free-thinking and smart , and I am. It was my goal all along to be a good example for them, to teach them to be responsible adults, and to not be afraid to make a decision or put themselves out there.

And, I've done just that.

Looks like I'll be doing a little extra gym time tonight.... I have a feeling there'll be a lot of feelings I'll need to release and let go...

Happy Tuesday
What do you get when you combine a one piece bathing suit and a port-a-potty?
Posted:Jun 28, 2020 6:57 pm
Last Updated:Jul 3, 2020 3:52 pm

A recipe for disaster.

I couldn't have asked for better weather for my four day weekend....

After having spent most of the weekend in the water at various lakes and beaches, the various parts of my body are now varying shades of red and pink.

Freckles... Starting come out full force.

Summer is officially upon us.

The Spawn, a friend, and I all went Thumb Lake today. It was a perfect mixture of sun, shade, and water..... The water part coming to a screeching halt when I pulled my arm out of the lake and had a stick bug clinging to it.

But, I digress.

I was able to spend the rest of the afternoon lounging in the shade trees on the shoreline enjoying the day. It was comfortable, and lazy, and my stresses in the world were gone....

Until I had pee, anyway.

Not thinking anything of it, the Spawn and I trecked across the parking lot where the port-a-potties sit.

And, this is where it gets complicated.

Entering the thing, I realize.... I have completely disrobe in order pee.

Not only was I wearing a one piece bathing suit, at this point I was also wearing shorts and a t shirt as well.

It was the balancing act of the century!! I'm pretty sure I couldn't pull that off again if my life depended on it.

Somehow I managed not drop anything, not touch anything, and not urinate anything as I hovered over the toilet seat.

It was a true miracle.

God bless us, everyone!
When the patio is the new parking lot....
Posted:Jun 26, 2020 5:45 am
Last Updated:Jul 2, 2020 4:15 pm

My white trash downstairs neighbor has taken to parking her patchwork pick-up truck on the lawn in front of her apartment.

Are you fucking kidding me??

I can only hope the apartment manager comes to work today and actually sees what the hell this redneck is doing.

Because, it's not like she's in any way, shape, or form close to the parking lot. She can't just, back up, and say "Hey, my bad!"

She's on the back side of the building. There is NO parking lot access back here. You literally have to drive across the lawn from the road to get there, where she's parked, right next to the playground equipment.


The only thing missing is a tarp for a bed liner and a back end full of water.

Redneck Pool!
Day 2 into the 4 day weekend....
Posted:Jun 26, 2020 4:37 am
Last Updated:Jun 28, 2020 11:01 pm
I took a couple of vacation days this week.

It has been an absolute, fucking blessing!

You don't really realize how burned out you are until you step away from something, even if only for a brief moment.

Going to bed late.... waking up when you want to.

Enjoying your time just doing... nothing!

I woke up this morning and lay there, for a long moment, listening to the song playing in my mind. It was Guns N' Roses, and I still knew every word.

You Will Be Mine

There is always music in my dreams. Sometimes I recognize the song, like today, and I can always hear every word.... It doesn't take long, once I'm awake, for the words to disappear, though. But, if I lay there quietly.....

Sometimes I don't recognize it. Sometimes I wake up and think, have I heard that somewhere? Does it sound familiar? Once upon a time there was a musician blogger on here that I would read.... He had told me those songs I didn't recognize were songs I had created.

I had liked that.

The Spawn and I ended up going to Sturgeon Bay yesterday after I got my hair cut.

I was disappointed to see my tree had finally fallen into the water....

There was something about that tree that kind of gave me hope, they way it just clung there, standing strong.

It is what it is, I suppose.

We just continue to keep.... Moving on.


To link to this blog (secret_lade) use [blog secret_lade] in your messages.

  secret_lade 46F
46 F
September 2020
Sun Mon Tue Wed Thu Fri Sat

Recent Visitors

Visitor Age Sex Date
Uaniok 60M9/24
topherific  57M9/24
HunginCollege35 21M9/24
Suppletitties  59M9/24
lindoboy100  57M9/24
Gotstohavefun198  35M9/24
thinkingofyou12  63M9/24
devilinhereyes72  48F9/24
Jamz443  69M9/23